Letting go

Well I finally had enough. I tried so hard to do so much. I finally just said to myself enough is enough. I packed the girls stuff put it on my car and drove it to their mothers. Enough though I hated to let them have their dogs back I just couldn't deal with the stress anymore. I should of just taken the dogs to the pound but the pound was closed. Either way I know eventually one day karma is going to get them. It always does. I just hope I did the right thing in giving up the dogs to them and that I don't get any bad karma. On another note. I really love reading the comments I got on my blog here. I love writing and having a place to write things out. I don't know if I plan on keeping my blog here or not. I have so many places on the web I have to try to keep up with. I haven't really updated my websites where I write my fiction stories and am in need of more writers there. I have only one person that helps me keep tract of the site for me. I really need more people to write their story ideas out. So if you would like to write fiction stories about the rock band Poison or Motley Crue I listed my web pages on my profile under web links I believe. I did get permission to write the stories using people in the group names since it is only fiction as long as I claim before I right them that it is a fiction story. Thank you for all your comments here and I really enjoy reading some of the other blogs. I haven't had the chance to comment on any yet but I think I'm going to comment back on a few. See you all in class.

Bad week

In Nov. I had two girls that lived down the street from me who had two kids that became friends with my two kids. Right before thanksgiving they showed up at my door step with their two kids and animals crying they just got kicked out of their house. So I took them in. I couldn't see those kids out on the streets and I thought it was only going to be a little while its the holidays. Well three months later January 4Th 2010 to be exact they were still in my house with their animals and had done nothing but come up with excuse and pleas. My husband in formed me that one of the girls pulls a knife out on him the night before while I was asleep. That was the straw that broke the camels back. I ordered them out of my house. I didn't care where they went I just wanted them gone. So they went to the shelter and left half their things and their animals at my house. I have given them so much time to come get the stuff and their animals each time talking to them they still are homeless and got kicked out of the shelter for the same drama the caused at my house. Also just sitting around doing nothing but getting high. Those poor kids. My heart has been aching so much over what to do. I want to just put all there stuff out under my car port and tell them to come get it I'm done. I am a big believer in karma and always ask myself and the person involved what they would do if the shoe was on the other foot. Of course their going to say they to me I would take you in if you were homeless etc...Thing is I know humanity. I have always lived by the code do on to others as you would have done to you. Thing is I've also know that you can only help so much its up to that person to help themselves and if all they are doing is nothing what more can I do? So this last week I've been in a war with myself and with these woman in what to do with the rest of their things. Part of me wants to just toss it all out be done with it and done with them for good but the other half doesn't because their kids are friends with my kids and its hard when they try to involve the kids in our disagreements. I keep thinking what if that was me? But then again I would do everything under the sun to keep from being in on the streets or being in that situation. I'm home my trip back home in March will be what I need in dealing with all of this. I will also get to make peace with my little sisters murder that took place in Dec of 08. Anyway everything that happens makes me stronger and a better person. I am so excited to be doing so good in school even in the middle of all this drama going on in my personal life I am always able to leave it out of my mind when I log into class.

Writing first draft

Normally I don't have any problem writing. I can easily write long letters and come up interesting stories. Writing an essay is a little harder. I really don't like doing research. I love learning and reading other things out there on different topics. Researching though it the hardest part of forming a paper. There is so much information on a lot of topics. Its hard to figure out when you read something if it is writing from a reliable source or not. When I graduated from high school in 1994 I had a really bad case of writers block. I could think of anything to write but I wanted to write a really good fiction story. I just didn't know where I was going to go with it or how I was going to do it. One day I was sitting down staring at my blank notebook listing to some music by the band Def Leppard and that was when I got a spark of an idea. I feel now listing to music while I think the story lines and ideas come to me when I get ready to write something even if it is a essay paper. I think everyone has their own ideas and ways to write things and I feel if you just write a whole page out on paper in ink without erasing things it is a start and a cure for the writers block.

Ice Storm

I live in Lawton, OK. It sits on the border of OK and TX so most would think that I live in the south and that the south doesn't get to see Ice or snow. They are wrong. Places like here in OK are famous for getting ice and sometimes we do get to see snow. On Christmas eve in fact we got hit with a snow blizzard. It was the first time we got snow on Christmas eve in years. Last week I didn't think I would make my classes because on Thursday morning we got hit with a really bad ice storm. Tree limbs were falling all over the place and power went out. The storm system also hit TN, KY, AR, NC, and other parts of the Midwest. Some got lucky and got the snow. The news called it the worst ice storm to hit OK since 2006. I took some pictures and I tell you it looked like a war zone outside of my house. It made me think of the hurricane I went through when I lived in SC. People were out of power for six to seven days. When I went through the hurricane in SC I was a teen and we went months before power was restored and parts of the state you can still the deviation hurricane Hugo had left behind. I'm still not use to living in tornado alley. We got lucky with when the ice storm hit and only lost power for about 5 hours early Friday morning. However it will take days for clean up and we have a big mess to clean. Here is on picture of the tree out in my front yard I took it when the ice turned over into some snow fall.